~ SiTohBehLeh Farm...! ~

this time i bring u all go to the strawberry farm located in GOhTong Jaya...(half Hill of Genting)



Dah dah...!
I tell u wat....is HUGE!! Bigger than the Cameron Highland ..!
haven masak...
Actually is not really a big farm but not bad la...

~ haiz ~

hello...
long time din blog d...
wana voice up inside my heart de words...!

i really so lost now....
BRO... i know u are the only one who will read my blog everytime...
i really cant let go at all..
altho my mouth said LET IT BE...
but i dono y...
everytime also cant do it...

i so damm suffer...
why the fuck she don just give wat ever i need...
so i will be more release...!

i really had a hard time here...
i everyday try my beest to work OT until tired...
don wan2 sleep and work only...
make myself tired then no time for me to think so much....!

i dono y i so unmature at all now...
i cant believe i ERIC LUA CHUN CHIN became like this ot rational at all...!
who can help me come out from the fuck damm asshole circle..!!!?!??!!?

i don wan to stay any longer in the circle...!
i wan2 come out from the fucktup circle...!
cant she understand how suffer i am....???

ya i dono wat she thinking....is cuz she din even wana tell me and share with me...!
everytime ask also the same answer...!!
wat she trying to avoid!?!?
she also make a fucking big decision without a rational thinking and withoout any reason for me....!
so wat the fuck now!?!?!

cant just we settle it by a cooling heart and open heart...!?!?
u think that this way we stiilll continue frenz???
this is making this relationship more worst...!
mayb this will cause frenz also cant continue...!
i just hope u open ur damm mouth and heart to share...!
izit that so hard for u!?!?!

i honestly tell u...
i damm fucking suffering everyday of my life!!!
this 50 days...
i live without any colour in my life...
there is no laughter in my life...
there is no warm in my life....i feeling so cold...!
eveynitez i wish to have u to give me a warm hug...!

in past off days...
i really dono wan2 use wat kind of heart to treat u...
and i dono ur DEAR... MISS U MISS U....
all this izit from ur heart....!!!
i really suspecting...!
cuz after u recover...all this is just a dream...!
and just a wind blow away only...

i am sorry to say so...!
cuz this is the feeeling u gave me!!
u din even really use the heart to tell me wat u are thinking and wat u wan..!

as i told u...!
i really don mind watever shit happened last time...
i just wan2 hear from ur heart...!
i told u be4...
everytime no matter how i angry how i bosong how i fa pi qi...
i also will came out to acc u...no matter how tired and how busy i am...
i just wish that the time u need me i be there for u...
but u also don be so selfish...
i just wan ur words from ur heart only ma...
izit that very hard for u???

i 100% know that sure got something that u don wish to say out until now...
u fear of something happen...
u know if u tell out all ...then will something worst happening...

but i can tell u....the more day u delay...
the more horrible thing will happen...!
u have to cool down and take some quiet time for urself and think it...!
not thinking about negative shit and avoiding something..!

rational thinking..!

i hope to get ur reply soon...!
i don wan to delay anymore..!

Bro i know u will going to read this...
i hope u can understand my feeling and help me...!
i fucking tired now...!

smile...haha...she think that my smile alway hanging on my face?!?!
i also lost my smile my laughter my happiness...!
who can help me!?!?!?

haiz...i really don wan continue write it....
i know if i continue it i will scold ppl....!

thanzk bro for the helping hand...
save me lord..!

! FAreWELLL~ !

Hi all...
how are u?
hope u all doing fine...!

Hmm...sorry for long time din blog cuz no time at all..
working OT and sleeping only...
makan time also din go makan...
hahhaa

today blog is about one of my batch gal resign cuz of some family problem...
hardly to say...we all really bu she de u de...

we spent our farewell nitez at outside crazy....
and kena scold by the guard here...
hahaha...
he say...OI...u orang punya suara dapat dengan dari First World Hotel la...
by the way...we are quiet a distance from F world...

then we heading to another secret place...
FW secret place...hahaha...
then we continue play there...
the photo can describe everything...

after that is quiet late le...
then all go hum..
suddenly someone said go MINUM,..
then go lo...

but at last just few ppl went only...all put aeroplane...
CB betui de..



k la....until jhere///

~ HI ~

hi everyone...
sorry ya...no posting this whoole week..
cuz bz working...
OT everyday..
haiz...!

~ New Life Day 3~

hihi

today is the 3rd day....
today i work 4pm to 1 am..

but unfortunaly...
today work as spare...
spare mean LEBIH de ppl...
waiting office to call only..

i waited 3 hour...
then finally went to work le...
but then work till 11pm only...
take over by other ppl...
then wait for check out at 1...
waited for 2 hour...
total..today 5 hours waiting there...
make me so suffering...
i rather work than wait...

today nothing special also..
i really dono how my life will be colourful like last time...
izit my decision to work here is a fault??
i really dono...
i hope everything will go smoothly and nth happen...

tmrw will be working 12pm to 8 pm
i really scare...
cuz after 8pm i dono wat can i do...
is very early...
i rather everyday work nitez shift
so i can slep...

but nvm la...i requested for OT EVERRYDAY....
hopefully everyday also got kena la...
if not i will die...dono do wat
lonely boring until die....

more 2 days...i will be working 7am to 3pm...
that time i really can DIE GAO GAO...
3pm leh....is afternoon...
wat can i do alone in the afternoon...!
SIGN,....

ok la..until here..
i will be on9 everyday to update my blog...
i know my blog doesnt so interesting...
but this is my dairy...
hahaa


ok take care...
CIAOZ

~ NeW LifE Day 2 ~

hi all...
how are u all doing right now?
hope all doing well...

i just finish work...
today work overtime 3 hour...
but i slept for 2 hours only...
cham... i work from 4pm to 4am...

today nth special...just normal lo...
just suddenly missing someone in my heart...!
dono how is she doing?

hmm...today working really mengantuk..
cant even count at all...
let customer scold...
hahaha....

today i pressed all OT and WOL...
dono why kena or not..
but hopefully will kena la...

don wan to be free...
wana work til tired like shit....!
then can no nid think much and won be so feeling lonely...!

until here today...
rushing go back to slep now...
tmrw working 4pm to 1am...but dono got OT again not la..
but feeling tell me there will be lo...
hahaa....


ok la...
ciaoz..take k ya!

~ OVer...is Over... ~

finally...

it

OVER...!

~ NO ~

is the answer...

my journey just started...!

cheer up...no matter what happened....

the road also need to walk by myself...!

GAMATEH...!

this is wat call as REN SHEN...!

there is alot of taste...

MASIN MASAM MANIS PAHIT...!

but anyway...

we need to look forward....!

there is no way and reason to stop me down...!

altho it will...

but what the fuck i can do...

i also nid to walk it alone...!

today is my first day...

living in so boring and lonely life...

but i am trying to make my life more colourful

GOD...

pls help me,your son...

keep me in ur hand and take me walk in ur bright future road...!

jaah...Neh...