~ haiz ~

hello...
long time din blog d...
wana voice up inside my heart de words...!

i really so lost now....
BRO... i know u are the only one who will read my blog everytime...
i really cant let go at all..
altho my mouth said LET IT BE...
but i dono y...
everytime also cant do it...

i so damm suffer...
why the fuck she don just give wat ever i need...
so i will be more release...!

i really had a hard time here...
i everyday try my beest to work OT until tired...
don wan2 sleep and work only...
make myself tired then no time for me to think so much....!

i dono y i so unmature at all now...
i cant believe i ERIC LUA CHUN CHIN became like this ot rational at all...!
who can help me come out from the fuck damm asshole circle..!!!?!??!!?

i don wan to stay any longer in the circle...!
i wan2 come out from the fucktup circle...!
cant she understand how suffer i am....???

ya i dono wat she thinking....is cuz she din even wana tell me and share with me...!
everytime ask also the same answer...!!
wat she trying to avoid!?!?
she also make a fucking big decision without a rational thinking and withoout any reason for me....!
so wat the fuck now!?!?!

cant just we settle it by a cooling heart and open heart...!?!?
u think that this way we stiilll continue frenz???
this is making this relationship more worst...!
mayb this will cause frenz also cant continue...!
i just hope u open ur damm mouth and heart to share...!
izit that so hard for u!?!?!

i honestly tell u...
i damm fucking suffering everyday of my life!!!
this 50 days...
i live without any colour in my life...
there is no laughter in my life...
there is no warm in my life....i feeling so cold...!
eveynitez i wish to have u to give me a warm hug...!

in past off days...
i really dono wan2 use wat kind of heart to treat u...
and i dono ur DEAR... MISS U MISS U....
all this izit from ur heart....!!!
i really suspecting...!
cuz after u recover...all this is just a dream...!
and just a wind blow away only...

i am sorry to say so...!
cuz this is the feeeling u gave me!!
u din even really use the heart to tell me wat u are thinking and wat u wan..!

as i told u...!
i really don mind watever shit happened last time...
i just wan2 hear from ur heart...!
i told u be4...
everytime no matter how i angry how i bosong how i fa pi qi...
i also will came out to acc u...no matter how tired and how busy i am...
i just wish that the time u need me i be there for u...
but u also don be so selfish...
i just wan ur words from ur heart only ma...
izit that very hard for u???

i 100% know that sure got something that u don wish to say out until now...
u fear of something happen...
u know if u tell out all ...then will something worst happening...

but i can tell u....the more day u delay...
the more horrible thing will happen...!
u have to cool down and take some quiet time for urself and think it...!
not thinking about negative shit and avoiding something..!

rational thinking..!

i hope to get ur reply soon...!
i don wan to delay anymore..!

Bro i know u will going to read this...
i hope u can understand my feeling and help me...!
i fucking tired now...!

smile...haha...she think that my smile alway hanging on my face?!?!
i also lost my smile my laughter my happiness...!
who can help me!?!?!?

haiz...i really don wan continue write it....
i know if i continue it i will scold ppl....!

thanzk bro for the helping hand...
save me lord..!

! FAreWELLL~ !

Hi all...
how are u?
hope u all doing fine...!

Hmm...sorry for long time din blog cuz no time at all..
working OT and sleeping only...
makan time also din go makan...
hahhaa

today blog is about one of my batch gal resign cuz of some family problem...
hardly to say...we all really bu she de u de...

we spent our farewell nitez at outside crazy....
and kena scold by the guard here...
hahaha...
he say...OI...u orang punya suara dapat dengan dari First World Hotel la...
by the way...we are quiet a distance from F world...

then we heading to another secret place...
FW secret place...hahaha...
then we continue play there...
the photo can describe everything...

after that is quiet late le...
then all go hum..
suddenly someone said go MINUM,..
then go lo...

but at last just few ppl went only...all put aeroplane...
CB betui de..



k la....until jhere///

~ HI ~

hi everyone...
sorry ya...no posting this whoole week..
cuz bz working...
OT everyday..
haiz...!

~ New Life Day 3~

hihi

today is the 3rd day....
today i work 4pm to 1 am..

but unfortunaly...
today work as spare...
spare mean LEBIH de ppl...
waiting office to call only..

i waited 3 hour...
then finally went to work le...
but then work till 11pm only...
take over by other ppl...
then wait for check out at 1...
waited for 2 hour...
total..today 5 hours waiting there...
make me so suffering...
i rather work than wait...

today nothing special also..
i really dono how my life will be colourful like last time...
izit my decision to work here is a fault??
i really dono...
i hope everything will go smoothly and nth happen...

tmrw will be working 12pm to 8 pm
i really scare...
cuz after 8pm i dono wat can i do...
is very early...
i rather everyday work nitez shift
so i can slep...

but nvm la...i requested for OT EVERRYDAY....
hopefully everyday also got kena la...
if not i will die...dono do wat
lonely boring until die....

more 2 days...i will be working 7am to 3pm...
that time i really can DIE GAO GAO...
3pm leh....is afternoon...
wat can i do alone in the afternoon...!
SIGN,....

ok la..until here..
i will be on9 everyday to update my blog...
i know my blog doesnt so interesting...
but this is my dairy...
hahaa


ok take care...
CIAOZ

~ NeW LifE Day 2 ~

hi all...
how are u all doing right now?
hope all doing well...

i just finish work...
today work overtime 3 hour...
but i slept for 2 hours only...
cham... i work from 4pm to 4am...

today nth special...just normal lo...
just suddenly missing someone in my heart...!
dono how is she doing?

hmm...today working really mengantuk..
cant even count at all...
let customer scold...
hahaha....

today i pressed all OT and WOL...
dono why kena or not..
but hopefully will kena la...

don wan to be free...
wana work til tired like shit....!
then can no nid think much and won be so feeling lonely...!

until here today...
rushing go back to slep now...
tmrw working 4pm to 1am...but dono got OT again not la..
but feeling tell me there will be lo...
hahaa....


ok la...
ciaoz..take k ya!

~ OVer...is Over... ~

finally...

it

OVER...!

~ NO ~

is the answer...

my journey just started...!

cheer up...no matter what happened....

the road also need to walk by myself...!

GAMATEH...!

this is wat call as REN SHEN...!

there is alot of taste...

MASIN MASAM MANIS PAHIT...!

but anyway...

we need to look forward....!

there is no way and reason to stop me down...!

altho it will...

but what the fuck i can do...

i also nid to walk it alone...!

today is my first day...

living in so boring and lonely life...

but i am trying to make my life more colourful

GOD...

pls help me,your son...

keep me in ur hand and take me walk in ur bright future road...!

jaah...Neh...

~ WISHES & WISHER ~

thankz for all the wishes by phone...sms...facebook and friendster...!

Khor sook fun

Ling Kim Kim

Ling Sha Lee

Sam Jun Yip

FongMor

Boon

Ee Ling

Miriam

Chea ing

Liz

Peony

Jc

Tao Tao

Christine

Mei Mei

DAD

MeeHun

i am sorry if i left out someone...

thanzk to everyone..!

sadly...got one person i feel disappointed that din even remember...

My Little SISTER....!

haiz...

~ burday 2 ~

hey all reader...

if u all did read my previous blog...long long story with full words de...

then u can continue with today blog...!

hehehe...

this is my entire life suprisingly and happy monent in my life de bday present and celebration...!

first of all...my schedule of my bday....is...

4am finish work... then eat kfc with frenz

5to 12pm staying up room...watch movie alone...

12pm to 1.45 sleping...

suddenly...

BOOM....

here come the surprise...!

some one came in my rooom...and give me this...!

is really so sweet...and i din expect this person will come to me...

and is really in front of me when i sleeping....!

for me...this little small cake...is very meaningfull to me...!

is a unexpected and unbelievable person gave it to me...!

it meant more than it for me...!

sadly....i eat it alone only...cuz she had ate...and full full d...

in the middle of this cake...

some something as in the pic...

yellowish jelly... is damm MASAM...!

"dear" i really thankz for that...

i really know it cause a danger for u to come in my room...!

anyway...i really appreciate...!

at least in my life of my 21th birthday...

is the most entire life meaningfull birthday i ever had...

i die also die de can close eye..!

ahhahhaa...

anyway thankz alot...

in my blog...i had said i can guess what my celebration and present i going to get...

but this time...i really really can imagine this will happened to me...!

THANKZ>....! MUCK>>.!!!!

JaAnEh...!

~ burday ~

hi...
this is the KFC as u all know
Genting KFC...


i went for meal after my work at 4am in the morning...

drink...orange juice

normal la...

they treated me..: )

thankz

sorry actually nth special

~ my birthday ~

now is passing le 6 hours 09 minutes of my 21th birthday...

i cant really believe i going pass my entire life the ONLY ONCE 21th birthday like this

i now at cc...

farking boring...

dono wat to do...

is that a birthday celebration is so special and important???

i dono... i really cant imagine it...!

in my entire life...

i never never get a special and SURPRISEs birthday celebration or even a birthday present...!

not even y close one....

what ever they going give me or celebrate with me...

i also knew it earlier...!

izit i too smart?!?!?

wahwhahwhahwhahahha...!

i wish before i die...!

i will recieve one...!

that celebration on my birthday and present from my love one...!

to all reader...

pls pray for my health...!

i think i really going fall ...!

is seriously FALL...!

i dono how to explain...

and i dono is it true...!

i just worry bout it..

i don wan to get anything happen from my health...!

thankz..!

take good care...!

JaAnEh..!

~ PRESENT ~

hihi....
this is a blog sp call present...
the present i had gave to her when i been here for 2 weeks time only
everyday when she finish work...
i also wil go and pick her up and give her different things to her..


this is the most special one...
Limited resources and wonderful perfect output...
wahaha... how intelligent i am...!

3 lolipop....*.*

this is the mouse-es...!

2 penguin and 2 mouse-es..

can u all c...all had a pair of it...

all i get it cuz of her...

i use all my strength everyday to get it for her...!

i really hope that she won throw it all...!

hehe

~ happy birthday ~

hi everyone..

i bring u this...

long time d also...

my dear bday...

is on the 10 of may...

this is the necklace i gave her and beside that is her mom give her de KAM SOH SI...

haha

this is the bday CAKE...

i made it by myself at KING hse...

from morning until evening i spent to do this for her...

it have 21 muffin cake with different favour...

this is the 1st time i made it for my love one...!

it really really hard to do it for me...

i hope she love it and feel happy and know my heart...!

dear happy bday...

happy alway..!

i love u!

BITE BITE

hi hi

this is photo long time d....

this one is on the 30 may

this below de 3 photo is on the 26 of april...

while waiting her to dress up to go back kl

how wonderful is it...
i really miss the time being bited...!
altho is painful...
but now i more painful in my heart...!